There was a time in my life when I was younger, I idolized my four older brothers. There was quite an age gap between us. My oldest brother is 13 years older than I am, the youngest of my four oldest brothers is seven years older than I am. So needless to say, we weren't hanging around in the same circles. I want you to think about and envision that picture of older kids peeking over the fence at what is going on, on the other side, and the younger child trying to desperately climb up to see what they're looking at. All he really wanted to do was to be a part of what was going on, and for me, that's what I wanted. That's how I wanted to feel.
I wanted to feel like I was included.
I wanted to feel like I was wanted.
I can remember a time where I used to bat boy for one of my brother's baseball teams. This team used to travel from town to town and play other teams. I'll never forget the time we were riding home on the bus from a game, and one of the kids took my hat. They started to pass it around the bus, and in that time I kept looking for my brother to do something.
TO HELP ME!
TO STAND UP FOR ME!
To make me feel like I mattered...especially to him.
Well, that moment never came. What happened was, one of the boys put his arm out the window with my hat, acting like he was going to let it go. I know he didn't mean to, but unfortunately, that's exactly what happened. Being the younger, little brother and given a hat by the coach of the team, made me feel included. That boy hanging it out the window and letting it go, didn't make me feel less included by the team, it made me feel less included by my own brother along with the fact he just didn't understand how important it was to me.
I'm Michael Ponte and in My Course, I'm going to help you move past those moments of feeling lost or lonely.
Feeling like you don't matter and help you turn your life
LEMONS into LEMONADE!